and again

The tyres screeched and then a bang! My baby started crying suddenly. i cannot put in words what i felt in that second. Thank God, nothing happened. Well, the car behind us had rear-ended our car. We were at an intersection, stopping at a red signal. With the baby, S is a very careful driver. The other driver apologised profusely, but it has left me a little shaken about taking him out. i wanted to hug him and pacify, but you cannot remove the baby from the car-seat immediately. This might be just the heart of a mother, but the most painful road safety rule in the U.S is not being able to hold your child while you are driving. Yet, i have to thank the car-seat for the safety of my child in that accident. If he was in my arms, he could have been hurt.

We  moved to Illinois at the end of July and S is yet to get his driving license from here. If we report to the police, it goes against the car and the driver that the car has been in an accident no matter whose fault. We were worried that this may hinder S from getting the license and decided not to report, and go via the insurance. i still do not know how to drive (this has been my new year resolution for many years. Darn, i make it like going to mars), and S has been doing all the driving for every small thing. As new parents, we are also struggling with the baby and trying to get to a routine.

i don't know if it is the hormones; after the baby, i have been crying for every small thing. So, let me cry for what could have happened (my baby could have been hurt), what did not happen (o thank God, we are all safe), and what happened (it is our brand new car and we need to change the bumper and some parts).

To release tension, i called up mother-in-law and reported the incident. The conversation went to another direction about God and me not praying enough or offering enough to God as i had been bed-ridden once after an accident. i am spiritual, but not too much into homas and pujas. S was pissed with me for instigating this to the mom-in-law and made me sound like a hypocrite. Going forward, all tension will be released on my blog.

A friend had suggested we go for apple picking this weekend to some place which is an hour's drive from here. i have decided to pick apples from the refrigerator instead.

And then it came

i had been waiting for the snow to come. Finally, it did snow just for a day, as if it was meant only for me. It hasn't snowed this year and it is unlikely to happen again. i was thrilled to see it from the window. But it came on a day when i had my doctor's appointment at 8.15 am. It was tough to go out, take out the car and rush. All this while, i thought of snowman and rolling in the snow, making snowballs and singing ala Jaya Bachchan and Sanjeev Kumar, Logon na maaro inhe yahi to mera dildaar hai. When it did happen, i just smiled and cheered, but did none of the above and surprised S. Perhaps, it is my nesting instincts that is avoiding me from prancing around. i can see the concern in S' face too. Tells me i look very vulnerable in this state. Well, the snow was serene, beautiful, and also scary all at once. Perhaps, the next time, i will know what to do with it.