For better or for worse

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there.

Bade goodbye to my organization. i join another place on the 27th. The goodbye was a little tough this time. Looking back, i realize i really enjoyed it here and learnt a lot. In fact, i don’t know how fast time passed. 3 years-almost.

SMSed to my old boss R saying 'i am leaving X to join Y. Not a meaty position but i am getting somewhere.' i love reporting to him about what is happening in my career. That company, though it was a very small firm, was another place where i lasted for more than 2 years. He gave me the freedom to do everything i wanted- write, service clients, co-ordinate, move to HR and back. Other places in between have been just few months' wonders. Mr. R was genuinely interested in Paddu and my affairs too. i told him that she married someone we did not hear about and i married someone whom they have not heard about. His reply was, "I am not surprised." Well!!!

After his wife passed way, the company did not last long, he wrapped it up and moved to Mumbai to another line of business. While discussing projects, he used to give nit-bits about his wife and sometimes questioned, 'why she had to leave everything behind?". i never asked anything. He had asked me to take him to coffee when i was leaving, but i don't subscribe to the idea of coffeeing with bosses alone, no matter how much the mutual respect and never did it.

In that small organization, the office boy was Chintan, the coffee-guy was Salaam, the Admin and Facilities lady was Sapna. Every face in the office had a name i knew. i graduated to MNCs and learned not to smile to anybody in the lift, to be a non-existent entity when two people laughed over a joke even if they were standing close to me and i heard it all. The office boys, security guards and everybody else i didn't know became 'excuse me’.

This time, i felt a sense of loss on my last day as if an affair was ending, even if it was for the better. i had a good look at the access card and was quite sentimental when i surrendered. Walked slowly from A block to B block taking in the landscape of the campus and its beauty and how much of a stranger i would be from the next day onwards. It’s tough to bid goodbye to a place you loved so much, a brand so much respected, a cubicle you were possessive about and wonderful colleagues to work with. Analysts claim that it is one among the 3 companies to tide through the recession in the best way. i am not sure if i am throwing it all away. With the recession happening and people losing jobs left, right and centre, i take this plunge hoping this is for the better. Time will tell if i was the greatest fool or i took the right risk.

Have a week to fill in. Thought I’d go for some adventure sports. S is worried I’d slip and fall and perhaps, die. Reason for his worry he says- he has invested a lot of money on me to woo and get married.

Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me theres room to grow, hey, hey
…
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there –Drops of Jupiter by Train.