Wednesday, January 18, 2012

my true colours

The idea of a life without a child did not scare me one bit. i was OK with or without it as S often said, we could do much more for poorer relatives and under-privileged children that way, and we could roam the world. However, the accident changed everything for me. i hit the ground on my butts and the impact left my lower body in so much pain. i don't know from where, but the fear that i may in fact, never have a baby appeared to me suddenly. i remember being rushed to the nearest health center first. i was almost delirious and asked for a gynaec to see if everything is fine. My colleagues came rushing. Looking back, i am quiet embarrassed at how i cried and told them, (many of them males) about my fears and how i had summoned a gynaec. i was not as much bothered about how many bones were broken, but whether anything was wrong inside. i did not even get the word Uterus, but told the doc that my vagina and everything around it is paining. How embarrassing!  how embarrasing! i was shifted to a good ortho hospital and there too, i made the Director of my department ask the same question to the doc.

Well, then S travelled. i asked him to get me pregnant before he left when i could barely stand. Obviously, he refused. :-) So, my main intention when i went to the U.S was only to get pregnant. Like many bloggers who disclose only after the baby is born, i wanted to do that. But i guess that is not my personality. i have been managing the past 5 months of pregnancy on my own and if i do not disclose it on my blog, where else would i? i have bouts of depression and frustration at times, but i am extremely thankful to God and all my colleagues and friends who have supported me in these months.

On a funny note, when i met with the accident, i thanked God that i wore nice panties. i wondered if i had worn boring ones, how embarrasing it would be had i died and they had to conduct a post-mortem. Also, my Line of Busniess lead took them off for me, and the director of my department (both ladies) put it back as i had to take x-rays of the fractured hip bone. Some lucky panty i say! Should frame it up for sweet memories
:-)

18 comments:

manuscrypts said...

Congrats!
PS: this was the post promised on my life-death post? :D

Arunima said...

@manus: yes, indeed. Should thank you for making me spill it out. :-)

Stone said...

Congratulations :-)

I like the label of this post - "accident , babies, life" :-)

Dreamcatcher said...

Congratulations :D

Aqua said...

First of all...CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I land up on your blog after aeons to find such great news. So happy for you. Where are you now? Bharat or Amrica? And your panty story is quite funny.

Me am on maternity leave right now, which kind of gives me the time to dust the feathers off my google reader and browse through my fav blogs.

Forgottogrowup said...

hey...many many many congratulations...:)...i read you blog regularly..its a fun place...:)

very happy for you..:)

austere said...

Congratulations!

Horrible about the hip bone, though, trust you're healed now, and with the little one to be and all...

Ardra said...

Am typing this with my mouth agape!Your last few posts had me utterly confused and concerned. Now I can breathe easy. :-) Congrats and God Bless.
Take care
Ardra

P said...

ha ha funny..I can almost imagine the look on your colleagues' faces when you were asking for gyno :D but your first line "The idea of a life without a child did not scare me one bit." Liar! Just from reading your blogs I know you always wanted to have kids. Go check some your posts just after your wedding. Anyways..

Many many congratulations to you and S. It must be hard going through pregnancy with S away. Take good care of yourself. Lots of best wishes :)

Meenakshy said...

wow... I should have guessed reading your previous posts.. DAMN. This reminds me of my time when I was pregnant and alone in Singapore having all-time sickness for the first four months before I returned here. Only if colleagues and friends were not there, probably I would have gone mad. They would carry spare plastic bags with them when I was around and say, "why do you always want to vomit in office, come lets go out and vomit in open air."
Take good care of yourself hon and if you need anything, just email me :)

Arunima said...

@P: :-) perhaps, you are right.

Anonymous said...

Visited afer a long time.Congrats from ME, M and a.
Hope you still remember me.
--Papillon

AmitL said...

Congrats, Arunima..and,trust you to maintain your sense of humour even in difficult situations..good going..:)

Soumya said...

Congrats!! And all the best for the next 4 months :)

I so understand the panty bit. When I was rushed to the hospital after an accident, the first thing I spoke when I opened my eyes was that "thank God, I wore a good panty, else imagine the shock of the doctors when they were undressing me for the surgery". No kidding! :)

Go ahead, frame it up!

Anonymous said...

congrats woman!! it's babyboom in blogland! take care.
anumita

Arunima said...

@Papillon: O, my God! yes, i do remember you. How have you been? Nice to see you around.

icyhighs said...

What Stone said.

wishes galore said...

congratulations!!
atta girl..i girl in my office too was handling her pregnency living alone and definitely its not easy..salute!
take care and best wishes..