Tuesday, September 29, 2009

and sometimes you bleed

And sometimes, you bleed just to know you are alive.
i am puking, i am crying, i am bleeding,
until i am left with no strength
it is not just the pain, it is also the fear that it may take away my dreams, bleed them away forever...
i curl up to a ball as if this would help me stop my insides from tearing apart
you look at me concerned, while i look at you through the excruciating pain, knowing you cannot bear half the pain that i am going through
my insides turn, they ache and scream,
my heart pounds everywhere, louder than ever
As you hold me tight, i know i am not ready to die...no, not... just... yet
perhaps, the dreams will take wings again.

19 comments:

Shruti SriHarsha said...

ohh!!!!
Beautiful description, yet quite scary....

Loved the way u concluded it...

AmitL said...

whew!What inspired this,Arunima?

wishes galore said...

take care, arunima..
"this too shall pass"..

~Lopa said...

Loved the first line...
sometimes, you bleed just to know you are alive....
Just like sometimes you get hurt just to know you can feel....

Shobana Jayaraman (Srikumar) said...

I like the way you've compared bleed to life and living. Very nice.
and yes,
you can dream your dreams and make them come alive.
you can dream up the wings you need to fly.
they are yours forevermore.
then dream again to set flight your dreams galore.
And soar all the way up so high.

Cheers!

Alapana said...

"the dreams will take wings again" The last line helped me have some more confidence towards living:)

White Magpie said...

The stork visited you? :)

Anonymous said...

very poignant... hope all well.
- anumita

wishes galore said...

you just won an award!!
take it from my place:))

DewdropDream said...

They will. And the pain will then only be a distant memory.

Hope you're okay.

Ritu said...

All well dear? Its a lovely description but morbid if it really happened to someone u know... The pain of miscarriage I am assuming... Take care

Thangjam said...

very touching and very well put...take care.

venkat said...

How are you,Arunima?Everything OK?Take care.

AmitL said...

Hi,Arunima-I logged on after a week and no post-hope the health's aok-both u and the hubby?Waiting for the next post.

Pallavi said...

Hope you are feeling better now Arunima.. !! Take care..

Stone said...

:-(
Take care!

Tys on Ice said...

all okie?

i sure hope this one was about that time of the month...wudnt want it to be anything else...

u take care

austere said...

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AmitL said...

Heyy..still no posts?Hope you're aok now,Arunima.TC.