Wednesday, October 26, 2005

There, she goes

Too proud to say that I’ll be missing her, I stood all alone in the terrace just asking to myself WHY? She breezed through my life after 14 years, a smarter and a more confident woman and a complete transition from the frail silent classmate I knew. She had claimed in front of the class teacher and the entire class that I was her best friend. I really felt nice as it was a prestige to have someone claim that way in those infantile days. I shared lunches, let her copy home-works and partnered her in any group-games. We separated in between as she left the State to study in another.

It was just yesterday that we had re-lived those memories and laughed over how possessive we were about best friends in those days.
It was just yesterday that she had told me how she sat in front of a Lorry to direct the driver as she brought the furniture home along with the other roomie.
It was just yesterday that we had worn the shortest skirts and wrap-around we have and danced in the huge kitchen over loud music and a dal tarka.
It was just yesterday that I feigned surprise over her possessing a stethoscope. I teased that I expected Ayurvedic Doctors to feel the nerves and give a Chavanprash.
It was just yesterday that we had planned to float her resume as she did not want to join the hospital where she was appointed.
It was just yesterday that we allowed laziness to take over and stared at the flour expecting it to turn into chapatti on its own but decided bread and butter tastes better.
It was just yesterday that we decided to exercise to firm up everything that needs to be firmed up.

She suddenly announced that she is going home as there are problems, doesn’t want to work here and that she is getting married. Her guy told her he cannot live without her. I don’t know if the intransigence was mine or hers. After 45 minutes of talking almost glibly why she wants to throw away everything so soon, she finally reasoned this is our age to get married. I blurted,”Oh F@$#%! I didn’t know that this is the age to get married. I don’t have any problems at home and I don’t know how it is to be committed to a guy. Please carry on and get married.” Funnily, it made her cry. Told her she is welcome to come back anytime.

Slowly but surely, I find people receding from my life. The pleasure was mine in knowing them. I let them go gladly. I let them go gladly…

Life, friendship, love and the aching sweetness of them all!

19 comments:

claytonia vices said...

Feel a lump in my throat. :-(

infinity said...

like lesser birds on four winds yeah,like silver scrapes in may...now the sands become a crust and most of u have gone away...

Stone said...

dunno..wat to say...hmmm....hope things work out for ur friend!!

!xobile said...

it feels sad to say
but the best of friends must one day seperate...
and every relation must..
and all those and that we see, are obviosly, temporary...

good...u let them go...

GratisGab said...

Boy that was well written....made me think of my fiends and how I might have walked out on them...too preoccupied with moving on myself....

Sue said...

If you love someone, let them go. When they come back, you know how much you mean to them. =)

anthony said...

Sad but true...
Good for me, 'letting go' have never been a problem.
Life goes on, being my favorite words.
Someone once said a friend of all is a friend of none, how so true.

And, yeah! some people seem to be really paranoid about getting married at a certain age. they aren't wrong either, but to each her own :-)

Cheer up.

manuscrypts said...

peace.. we are all moving on..we have to... sometime later you ill have a smile on your lips when you remember these days...

Surinder said...

when i started reading this .. i was thinkink abt my days at school .. the days i've spent with my friends ..

but the end was a sad :( ..

well i guess that what life is all about .. people come and people go .. and leave their footprints ..

and its not that they leave forever .. they are always there .. maybe a bit far then usual .. but they are there .. !

Ashish said...

huhhhh :-<
Did they say life is a bitch!!
listening to page 3's kitne ajeeb rishte hai yaha pe.

No not the song, would want to quote just one line:
waqt ne hamensha yaha naye khel khele
kuch bhi ho jaye yaha bus khush rehna hai

Parna said...

hugs girl.

nimesh said...

Lets go easy on our life, shall we. This shall also pass.

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Sujit said...

good decision.. to her go...

s! said...

ahh, the dilemma of letting go..

here's wishing the both of you well, and hoping that your paths stay always intertwined.

Anonymous said...

c'mon ...stuff like this happens...but be fair on her...its her life for god's sake!!!
and yeah, we gotta get used to the fact that ppl will always but move away....but move away doesn't necessarily mean drift apart....
:)

Anonymous said...

i know her.. she is coming back. cheers to your friendship..

Mr. Maverick said...

Just today morning my worldspace radio was playing this song... "There she goes, there she goes again.."

Jas said...

Hey Cheer up Babe!!! We all go through this phase. Frankly, I went through it on 31st August- 1st September. Take Care!! ;)