Friday, October 14, 2005

Perfidious heart!!!

“I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere newI don't know who you are…”

For most part of the past two years, I thought this was my song. Even while I was dating and flirting with some of the most eligible bachelors.

He was one of the best guys that happened to me. He crossed miles just so that things could be formalized. I don’t know how I ended up being so selfish. I don’t know when things went so askance, when my heart turned perfidious and when I slipped away? Read it true that the street slang of life is one word-irony. Perhaps, I just love being sad. Perhaps, I am not really a nice person to know.

21 comments:

n.g. said...

when i first saw avril in concert i was convinced she needed to grow up and stop breaking windshields.

then she grew up.

about your little 'not being a nice person to know' thing, none of us are, really. and it pays to be a little selfish, you gotta live with yourself all your life, can't piss yourself off.

claytonia vices said...

You have to be truely selfish to really come to love. And only when you are really selfish will true love come to you.

d4u said...

Hmm..sumtimes such memories bring out the best words...

AmitL said...

Hi,Arunima,I agree with Nish.You have to be a little selfish to be happy in life.:)So,whether that makes us 'not a nice person to know' or not,is upto people to decide.:)

Nim said...

Well, its hard not be selfish about someone which is very close to someone's heart. Irony seems to be the right word to describe life, but not the only one IMO. "Wonderful at the same time Funny" can also be the words used describe it. Its just the way we look at it. Anyway, its always intresting reading your blog. Just don't be sad and keep writing the good stuff.

tony said...

But believe me it doesn't cost much to be nice. but then there is a little catch, you can't be only a little nice. If you want to be nice then be nice all out.. see the difference...

Handa said...

no one is a nice person. life fucks us all in different ways...

Hemanshu said...

Just because u decided to be selfish doesn't make you a bad person. But yes, sometimes you need to let yourself go in order to get/catch something bigger and better than yourself.

Take it easy, and don't fret too much chapti!

makash said...

Perhaps, I just love being sad.

That is the key here. You are not alone in feeling like this.

The way I it - only if you truly experience sadness can you truly appreciate happiness.

take care

infinity said...

nice people exist only in books and movies...no actual living person is a 'nice' one...because being nice means being totally nice which implies perfection,which does not exist...

asterix said...

perhaps....

Jas said...

I was damn sure you would pen down this song one day!!

Nobody is good!!! Everyone pretends to be good & thats because of their own selfish motives... So go on & be selfish!!!! ;)

Anonymous said...

Romzzzzz.....
Its never easy for anyone to mend what's broken once......But someone has to try.....right baby????
So stop being sad and trying mending all the broken things.....May be life has better things planned for you.....

SO go ahead and give it a last shot

--papillon

tony said...

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http://anthonysmirror.blogspot.com

tony

GratisGab said...

It's human to look for things to worry about....if you're questioning your selfishness it shows you're not so.

|| sbk || said...

Hmm..not a nice person after all eh..??? Well, somehow you really need to work on your convincing powers...hehhe

Cheers!

manuscrypts said...

complicated... on the last sentence, virtually u seem to be a nice person, really :)

s! said...

well, here's best wishes and prayers.. hope you manage to resolve how you feel, and quickly too! :-)

goodwill hunting said...

DONT be sad..juts enjoi ..its the fundamental rite of females to dump guys ..and its the fundamental duty of guys to still go for gals ..thats what the 500th ammendment of the indian constitution says !

Parna said...

hey babes! dont fret. you know we all are selfish and love ourselves the most at the end of the day. and we all have our insecurities. but you know what? the trick is in getting up and facing the day after.

Anonymous said...

hey !! are you so sad?? don't always wait for mr nice guy.he may not turn up or be nice to you.its ok to be little selfish and little agrresive.on the other side he might not know how to be nice and please you, show him the way towards you.